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I live far away from USA and I have never even visited the country. I haven't intended to do so either, considering where the country has been headed in recent years. But maybe things will start getting better again, now.

I'm all emotional over Obama's win. Not only because the US now has a democrat as a president again, but mostly because of the historical weight this election has had. I mean, twenty years ago, hell, even 10 years ago, would you have believed that in 2008 America would choose like this? Honestly?

This can be nothing but a turn for the better, so congrats all you Americans on my F-list!

Haven't much felt like writing recently. I'm only writing now because I don't want to go jogging just yet (I'm waiting till later so I can visit the graveyard on the same trip without having to deal with the rest of the people there). Not much has happened anyway.

Well, I HAVE decided on where I'll apply in the spring. Three App. Science Unis with IT related majors. There's this one city in particular that I'd like to get to, but it's apparently also the hardest to get in of the three. I'm not terribly worried though. The max points you can get while applying are 100. 40 come from the entrance exam, 55 from upper secondary school certificate and 5 from whether or not the school you're applying for was your first choice. So, before the exam I'll have 49 points together, and if I'm lucky I'll get at least close to full points on the exam. So I'll have something like around 80/100 points. And even with the Uni I'd most like to get into, the entrance percentage is close to 50% on this line, so I shouldn't have that much trouble. If I don't totally fuck up the entrance exam that is.

But we'll see.

Mostly I'm just concentrating on saving money and losing weight right now. Nothing worth writing about so I won't crowd your friends page with all my boring shit.

A quick one:
- The Stick is my friend, The Clutch, however, is not. Yet.
- Did laundry.
- Went for a six mile walk/jog.
- An autumn storm is promised for tomorrow.
- Am reading a book about sugar cravings.
- Bought a lottery ticket the other day. Won €10,90. El'o'el.

I'm going to turn off my computer in a minute and not open it again in at least 24 hours. I waste all my time on this machine. This has to stop!

So tomorrow I'll get to know our new baby (this petite pretty Mazda) and reacquaint myself with the dreaded stick. If you never hear from me again I have probably managed to wrap myself around a street light or some such, the amazing driver I am. Or it may well be that daddy dearest has had a nervous fit trying to get me to learn something about driving that damned car and has been so unsuccessful that he has had to resort to drastic measures. I.e. he has abandoned me somewhere along the freeway and I will never be seen again as I've been captured by some psychopath who likes to chop up hitch hikers and eat them for lunch. And dinner too, on Sundays.

You can probably tell I've been eating A LOT of candy in a very short period of time. H Y P E R much? And I'm supposed to go to bed soon so I'll get the mountains of laundry done that I have waiting every where.

PS I hate myself for always falling for the wrong people (=people who are already seeing someone, usually someone I also know) . But that's a rant for another day. Off to hunt the Sandman now, maybe he can give me something to calm me down a little. So maybe I'll even get a little sleep at some point.

It's possible that I haven't officially changed my home municipality since moving back here.

Too bad that legally you have to notify the local register offices of a change of municipalities within a week of the switch or else.

And there's no way to check it up anywhere. How stupid is that? So basically I'll have to walk up to the local offices and fess up my ignorance and generally just make an ass of myself.

I am NOT happy about this.

In other news: went for a walk before work today; work was okay; I'm okay. Well, better than yesterday, anyway. The whole local register office mess has made me a little edgy, though. Will get over it eventually. Oh yeah, and I'll prolly make more money this month than I originally thought. Yay!

Song of the Day

Children of Bodom - Oops! I Did It Again (Britney cover)
(No video, just the song on a black background, sry)

I love CoB. One of my fave bands out there. I chose this song today simply because it put me in a good mood this morning when I was taking my walk.

I love CoB for a lot of reasons. Obviously the music is great, and the musicians really talented. But I also like the musicians' personalities. They are so laid back, man, and they def don't take themselves too seriously. This song is actually a pretty good indicator of their sense of humor. They've also covered Umbrella on a gig.

Anyway, I love them!

( A pic of the lead singer. Cause he's such an adorable little chibi. )

I bought a new pair of pants today. I tried them on at home, and I pretty much looked a seal. A seal that has been stuffed into a skin couple of sizes too small. Fucking gross. All I ever do is eat eat eat and then I wonder how I'm this fat. Bullshit.

How can't I ever do anything right? 25 pounds ago I was happy with my body. I don't remember much else about that time, because all I ever did was drink coffee or water and think about all the things I didn't allow myself to eat. Occasionally I'd exercise, but that's it. I have little memories of that time.

And then I started to eat. And I can't. Fucking. Stop.

I don't wanna go to how things were before. But even 10 pounds less would be enough. I'd feel good about myself, like the way I look like, be healthier. I'm disgusting now. Jesus. What a failure.

I remember how when I weighed a little over hundred pounds I'd think about all the "fat people" out there (=normal people) and how I'd never be one of them. I couldn't understand how anyone could let themselves go like that. But. You know. I do understand it now. It's a question of noticing the change too late.

I need to change. Yeah.

(I'm sorry, I know this is pathetic.)

Song of the Day
Archive - Goodbye

Yet again something to fit my mood. Melancholy and heartbreaking. One of my favorite songs, ever.

I like kids. I'd make a terrible Mama, myself, cause I've such a short temper, but I still like other people's kids. And I absolutely adore my Godson who'll be 18 months in a few weeks. He is such a doll (though he's loud as all hell, he's grown up around two noisy Aras (Scarlet Macaws) and he likes to imitate their screeches and squawks and screams. I mean seriously, they are LOUD. I don't get to see him nearly as much as I'd like, but I still love him to bits.

Today was the slowest day of the month this far at work. Jesus, I was nearly bored to tears. I cheered myself up with some ginger snap chocolate after work though, and spent some money on a thermos-mug and some yarn for my handicraft projects (that I usually don't even finish but that I really like messing around with). Otherwise a very useless day. I hate the fact that my boss decided to give me an evening shift for today and a morning shift for tomorrow. But at least I'll be home early tomorrow so I'll have some serious DDR time for myself for a change.

What else? My mind is a void right now. Maybe I'll finish my coffee and then crawl into bed and read for a while. No way will I get enough sleep tonight so I might as well stay awake late and be dead tired tomorrow.

Sorry about the lack of comments, by the way, I've been reading my friends page every day but haven't had the energy to comment. I'll work on that tomorrow.

Song of the Day

Bishi - On My Own Again

Bishi is an artist whose music I haven't heard all that much, but all that I HAVE heard has been to my liking. Especially this song. I dig the sitar parts (if that's what the Indian instrument in this song, in fact, is) and I also really like Bishi's rawness and this certain edge she's got.

ETA

I usually wake up to the sounds of my radio going off in the morning. Today, the song that was on was December by So Called Plan. And that song has been haunting me the whole day, because I can't get my head around what band it reminds me of. So if anyone who listens to lots of different bands could check out their MySpace and listen to December in particular and then come and tell me who they fucking sound like, I'd appreciate it. And I know they are very generic but it's a particular band that lurks at the edges of my mind when I hear it, not a whole genre of bands.

And for the record, I actually like their music, even if they aren't what I typically listen to. Yeah, and they're also Finnish so I can't tell if they have a funny accent to native speakers or not, but anyway.

Song of the Day

Protocol - Where's the Pleasure

Makes me feel like jamming every single time I hear the song. I never tire of this, and I've heard this enough times to lose count.

It's a shame most of our foreign customers are from non-english-speaking countries. I don't get to practice my verbal skills nearly as much as I'd like, at least not with natives. Today I had to help out a fellow cashier with some Eastern Europeans 'cause she doesn't speak English at all and she needed to see some ID since they were paying with a credit card and the sum was so high and yada yada. So she tapped me on the shoulder and told me to talk to them. Asking them for an 'ID' got me a blank face. 'Personal identification papers' added the proverbial question mark on top of their heads. Finally 'driver's license' was what got me through. Thank god for that because after that it would have been either 'a passport' or body language.

Anyway, I really like our foreign customers most of the time. I really enjoy meeting people who come from different cultures than I do and even if it is only for short periods of time, I enjoy connecting with people at work. One of the good things about my job, even if I like to bitch about it a lot in general. My faves are Japanese tourists 'cause they're always so polite and friendly (and pretty!). Mid-Eastern families are also nice, although they are pretty reserved and don't usually chat much, but I just like the way they interact with each other and how different they look and stuff.

I generally like to ogle our customers a lot, which is probably really creepy when you think about it. But seriously, I gotta keep myself entertained somehow. So I watch people, the way they look, dress, move and interact with people. Because you know, people are really interesting. Sometimes, when I'm really bored and have no customers, I like to make up stories about the people I see at work. Like what goes on in their heads, what kinds of dirty little secrets they have, what they think about their mother-in-laws and such. Maybe I'm just weird but that keeps me entertained :D.

This could actually be a better idea than I originally thought. On a larger scale, I mean. I'm talking about the Africa-Finland Big Brother swap. What a great way to bring awareness to cultural differences. And what better way to broaden people's horizons than through a show that's one of the most popular realities in Finland? I just hope that this week's tasks will be good ones on both ends so that we get to really see the diversity of the different African cultures represented in the African house.

It's also great how the Big Brother fans of both shows have begun to mix on the respective forums. Fun to see how differently things are done both in the houses and on the forums. Though it's a shame how much more censored the African house is this year, after all the scandals last season. But I believe this is going to be great change to the normal happenings. Plus, I'm willing to bet that this swap is a mind boggling experience for Munya (the African housemate) and for Johan (the Finn). Definitely an experience of a lifetime.

And oh, how I loath the fact that I have to go to work today.